That Someone

|| How can someone make you so happy just by smiling at you and how can they make you so mad just as easily? How can someone hold so much power over you? ||

I really need to focus and finish up all my projects. August is ending soon and I'm no where near in finishing everything.  I should stop whining and just get everything done. Anyway, going out with my class for house visiting this Friday. I didn't wanna go because everyone will look so pretty and handsome and I'll be there in the corner looking like Minnie Mouse gone wild. Ughhh. But for you, I'll put on my brave girl pants. I want to spend all my time with you so I'm gonna snatch this up like a greedy person that I am and just enjoy Friday with you.

I can't believe a few months ago we weren't even talking but now it feels so wrong if we didn't talk for a day. When I wake up I think of you and before I closed my eyes, you'll be on my mind. Is this right? Is this how it should feels like? Because this is some scary shit.

"Is it selfish to say I want you the whole fucking time? I want you in my head. I want you in my bed. I want your hands all over my thighs. Give me your tightest grip. I want to exhale all of my loneliness and sadness to you. I want to breathe you in. I want you. I want you and I know this sounds pathetic but I want you to want me too."

Have you ever felt really jealous of your friends who have a partner? They have someone who they can held hands with. Someone who will whisper the I Love Yous. Someone who they have the right to text any random time whining "I MISS YOU". Well now I can't believe that I have that someone. It's scary because now I have so much to lose. Damn. But I'm not giving this up.  Never.