It's hard to be back at the place that brought you so much unhappiness. I thought I wouldn't need to go back there. But I had to if I wanna succeed in the future. Well that's what they told me. I was dreading and dragging my feet on the first day. I swear, I felt sick to my stomach. On the way there, I plugged in my earpiece and blasted some music to maybe soothed my nerves. Gosh, it was like taking the O level again. The anxiety and fear ate at me like tiny monsters on my skin. I wanted to turn back around and stay home. But I couldn't because I'm gonna do this for my parents, advisors and of course, myself.
I could use some support. I really could. Someone to be by my side would be nice. I'm trying not to crave for it though. I have to depend on myself. No one else but myself. I won't push away people though. Surprisingly, it wasn't so bad. Time passed quite fast actually. Which was great.
If I could do anything or be anywhere, I would want to go on a picnic at a quiet park and eat pizza. I want to eat, laugh and share stories with someone. Wishful thinking.
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